At some point last year I felt like I lost the sense of who I was as a person. About half way through the year I stopped doing the things that made me happy and things I had once enjoyed. Emotionally, and in some ways physically, it was a hard year for reasons I won't go into. Some days, it took all of my energy to even get out of bed. So in 2014, I hope to find myself again. I am going to take more time for myself. I am going to take more time to find myself and to try and figure out who I am. I am going to strengthen my personal relationship with Jesus Christ. I am going to share my testimony more. I am going to stop being so negative and focus on the positive. I want to be okay with not being okay. I am going to try to stop judging other people. I am going to journal more. I am going to live in the present and stop worrying about what has happened or will happen in the future. I am going to have more faith in God and in His plan for me instead of fearing what is to come. I want to grow as a nurse, a person, a wife, daughter, sister and friend. I want to dance more. I want to do more yoga and run more. I want to participate in at least one half-marathon. I am going to eat less junk food and more fruits and vegetables. I want to appreciate and love my body how it is. I want to care less about what others think of me. I am going to read more book and watch less TV. I want to do more service. I want to be a better example of my religion. I want to be a better missionary. I want to travel more and appreciate the beauty the Lord has blessed us with. I want to save up enough money to go to Bali. I want to spend more quality time with my husband and my family. I want to strengthen my relationships with my husband, family and friends. I want to send birthday cards to all of my nieces and nephews. I want to get out of debt. I want to have a conversation with someone in another language. I want to take advantage of every day. I want to do things that make me happy. For me, 2014 will be about improving myself. Becoming someone I can love and becoming someone others can love.
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ReplyDeleteI love, love, love this post! Here's to a wonderful year. My 2011 was that way - it felt, at times, soul-crushingly hard. I seriously didn't know how I was going to survive it. But I did, and I learned from it, and 2012 and 2013 were years of absolute magic. I hope this year is like that for you! And bravo for having the courage to do things that make you happy. This is something I've been thinking about a lot this year - about how we have this cultural idea, almost, that doing things because they make you happy is not okay. Like you should be doing something more "productive," or something - when, often, I think we're at our most "productive" (if that even matters, but I know that it's always a big word for me!) when we're at our most happy, when we've taken the time to nourish our souls and fill up for the jobs life asks of us.
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The key phrase being; "created for My glory", praise God.
I love you. Sending you prayers and good vibes for this year. You are wonderful and beautiful...you got this! :)
ReplyDeleteAmanda, you ought to sign up for Send Out Cards. It is a great way to remember to send cards to people that you want to. If you decide to do it, talk to Sara....she helped me get signed up.
ReplyDeleteSuch a great post, Amanda. My heart has been heavy a lot because I need to improve and repent...the quote by Elder Bednar made me cry...I am a work in progress but I am making strides. Thanks for writing this :)
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